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[ravelt]

[It's been about a week since it happened. A week since he'd returned from his mallynap and forced under the demonic control of Sacrifar. Thanks to an intervention by Edward Elric, Haru was stopped, and the sword's control released over him was broken.

He'd spent the rest of the week in the clinic, unconscious from a combination of the strain the sword had placed on him, the wounds he'd suffered and severe exhaustion. Also maybe blunt force trauma from being hit by a metal arm. Maybe. Plue sat on top of him the entire time, watching him to see when he'd wake up. He'd come to on Monday, but his mind was kind of a fog, spending the day in a daze as he tried to piece together what had happened. It was only the following morning, after sleeping the previous night and his subconscious painting the picture together for him in a rather graphic nightmare, that the full weight of what had transpired truly hit him.]

I'M SORRYYYYYY!

[Haru, always having been the emotional sort, has tears streaming down his face. He takes a moment to sniffle, wiping his face with his bedsheets. Come on, Haru, don't cry all over the journal. That's just gross.]

I... [Sniff.] I know apologizing's not gonna make up for what I did last week... I hurt some people, and I caused a lot of damage, and I... [He doesn't want to admit that he also actually killed someone. He has no idea how he's ever going to cope with that one. He's never killed anyone before...]

But still... I'll say it a thousand times if I have to. I'm sorry! If I hurt you, I get it if you can't forgive me for what I did. I was way outta control there... But... I gotta make things right, somehow. So give me that chance. That's all I can really ask...

[He cuts off the feed there. He'll spend the rest of the day in the clinic, in case anyone would rather come see him.]

Comments

[ravelt]

...Yeah. It's really powerful, but it warps my mind. That's not the kind of power I wanna rely on. That's why I've only ever used it once back home.

[aerialassault]

That makes sense...

[It wasn't hard for him to put the pieces together. He had already suspected it, but Haru's words just about confirmed everything for him.]

You weren't really you back there then, right?

[ravelt]

[He just frowns at that.]

I can't really say that. I wasn't really myself, but... I was still aware of what was goin' on.

[aerialassault]

...Didn't you just say that you weren't in control?

[ravelt]

Yeah, but that doesn't change that it was still me out there.

[aerialassault]

But you also couldn't control yourself. It was the Malnosso at fault here, since they put you in that position.

...I wouldn't blame you. I'd blame them.

[ravelt]

The only thing the Malnosso did was force me to use it. It's my power, and I couldn't control it. So I'm just at fault here.

[aerialassault]

Tell me something. Did you ask for that power?

[ravelt]

I didn't "ask" for it, but... Rave chose me, and I accepted the responsibility that came with it.

[aerialassault]

...

You lost me again. 'Rave'?

[ravelt]

Rave is what my power's called. It allows me to use the Rave Stones and their powers.

[aerialassault]

And these powers are mostly used for better reasons, right?

[ravelt]

Of course! Rave's meant to protect the world! [He almost sounds offended that you're implying it could be used any other way.

Almost.]

[aerialassault]

[Good kid.]

And you wanna keep doing that, right?

[ravelt]

Of course!

[aerialassault]

Then don't let it happen again.

[He was more pointed with those words, but he figured that Haru would be able to manage things if he kept his focus...maybe.]

[ravelt]

I won't! There's no way I'm gonna endanger the lives of so many people like that!

[aerialassault]

That's the spirit!

[Grin.]

Keep up that attitude and keep working, kid, and there shouldn't be much of a problem. Just do your best if you feel guilty, got it?

[ravelt]

Right. I'm gonna keep going, no matter what! I've come this far, after all.